I'm back.

I guess there is no one reading my blog anymore. It has been full with cobwebs since it has been.

Like what i've said more and more traveling going around. But unfortunately due to some unforeseen circumstances i might cancel my upcoming trip. Sad. But this is not to bad. We are going to replace by the theme "Travel like a MALAYSIAN"

Hopefully everything goes well.

I shall update my blog with more pictures. I will. I shall. I must.

Just stay tune. Whoever that still reading my blog. =(

NO.

I'm having the coffee side effect.

I just dont feel good lately. FML.

Is all my problem. Is my fault.

I shall not complain. No one force me to do anything.

I SHALL SAY NO THE NEXT TIME!

Changing. Trash.

When people gets emotional. The people might say things that he/she doesnt mean it.

They just need more attention.

I'm ok, Im alright. What the hell is that?

I said i want to change, I said i'll try to change. I said i wanna be a better person.

I'm just who i am. I never change. Im not sure. I might have change, but just in a very minute scale. None would notice. Only i'll know. I'll know the difference.

It might be so routine. Normal catch up. The same intonation, the same laugh. But it might be so sad to notice, it will never be the same. For better or not.

Im not sure, the environment or the place will change a person. But im sure everyone change. Just with or without realising. But im glad that i'm once such-a-person before. I appreciate and love to be who i am (the hate-love feeling)

I couldn't breathe when things coming to near.

I couldn't see when things are too far.

I couldn't notice when things are meant to be

I couldn't get used to it when things aren't the same anymore.

I hope that the route, the environment, the surrounding help me to understand what i really want.

What they want from me? What they want from me?

I'm not as free as you see.

I'm not as good as you thought.

I'm not as bad as you might see.

I'm not crossing the borders that you thought.

It might be just a greeting. It might be just a word. It might be just a joke. It might just a misunderstanding. It might be .. it might be. If you believe it you will. White lie is still a lie. Truth is never within the lie. beLIEve even have lie in it. If you believe me you might be just lie-ing.

I'm sorry being too selfish at times.

I'm sorry that mess up your mood.

I'm sorry that i couldnt make up to.

I'm sorry that i fail all the time.

What a trash.

Me so lazy!

It will take me forever to back date all that happen since end of March till last week.

It has been lotsa trips..

Malaysia -> China ( Shanghai / Hangzhou ) -> HK -> Macau -> Cherating (Kuantan) -> Genting -> Tour in Penang -> Cameron ....

I wish to blog about a lil things that happened in all the places that i went.

But not today. Im just abit lazy. I should maybe back date them to one FINE DAY!

For now, i think i should only concentrate more on my thesis.

3 more weeks. =)

All the best.

I need more discipline for that!!

C'est le vie.

Life is always about decision making.

Lately, keep going round and round bout this. But at a point i really think that im in such a dilemma. (in fact i am the one placing myself at this state)

To leave my comfort zone and jump into a place where im not familiar in.

Just because i want to see more, know more and experience more. Just to please my curiosity? Is that worth it??

But if is not now then when?

When i got tons of commitment and working my ass off just to pay those loans and mortgage?

I know it might not be the best choice to choose. But we will never know what is the best. Coz we could not choose 2 paths at once. So there is no comparison. I just have to believe that the path i choose is the one that i wish to travel.

The route is never a parallel line, it might ended up at the same destination. Just the people and events that along the path might be different.

Look at this.. You can reach the destination using a few ways. Just which one you wish too.

What is you priority? You want to drop by at xujiahui for a dinner catch up? West Nanjing for the stunning night view? Lujiazui for a drink at 92 floors?

But you can reach the same destination.

More experience?

More efficient?

i love to explore.

if he..

I heard from my friend that.....

If he holds you tight in front of his friend,

this means he is serious.

If he acts like he doesn't care,

he actually does... ( He just doesn't has a stand to care)

If he gives you his name card when you already have his contact,

he wants you to remember him. Call him.

If he plays with your hair,

means that he cares for you and wants to pamper you.

Wondering how true is that? =/

faith...

I come across a saying that....

" I miss those days when the hardest decision was to pick out crayons and paints for painting rainbow"

Decision making is always the toughest things on earth!!

You will never know what it will lead you too, if you choose this or either way.

Worst part, if there is more than 2 paths..

Leave it to faith??

I wish i know where is the best place for me. But there is always good and bad. You will never get a perfect place to go.

Bring me to the place that you want me to be. God bless. Faith!

Now i learn to live at the moment. Don't bring tomorrow's worry to today.

I'm waiting for my rainbow. After rain....